Dear Dreamys,
Yes, I’m referring to you who I consider a part of the Dreamy Crew given you’ve made your way to this post. If you’re anything like me, your twenties (and maybe thirties for the real adults) have been complex. I don’t know about you but it can be overwhelming to enter the never-ending cycle of work, spiritual exploration, maintaining a home, being a good friend, remembering to make your bi-annual dentist appointment, and the like. This can’t be the adulthood I mapped out playing M.A.S.H. in sixth grade. Here’s a link to pique your nostalgia.
The other day, I felt discouraged. Instead of dismissing my feelings and detaching, which is my favorite coping mechanism, I decided to embrace my emotions. I turned up my Sonos speaker, put on my Vibes playlist, and let ‘er rip.
First, I felt all the feels. Then, I was reminded that sitting in my feelings was great and all, but I wasn’t being proactive about the situation by sulking. So I decided to pray. Afterward, I sat for a few minutes, finished working, and then did yoga. A few hours later I decided to circle back to said-prayer since I noticed my bank account wasn’t at $1M and my student loans weren’t miraculously paid off. But then I immediately realized two things.
1. When I’m requesting divine support, I have to relinquish control.
-Me realizing you can’t rush a blessing
That’s right boys and girls, I prayed for something and then wanted my answer ASAP. I can’t stand when Doug rushes me out of the house, so I quickly realized the amount of nerve I had by giving God a timeline. Due to this revelation, I’m trying to be more mindful of letting go as I attract large blessings into my life.
2. Sometimes, you need to change your environment to receive what you’re asking for.
-Me after staying in the house all day looking for the previously mentioned blessing
After I realized the sign I asked for wasn’t popping up instantly, I had an honest moment. During my prayer, I asked God to change my spirit and show me a sign, all from the comfort of my home.
I asked God for something while staying in the same spot and then realized faith doesn’t work like that. That’s like praying for a relationship but you don’t want to leave your home and you don’t want anyone coming to your house either. Relationships as a whole don’t work that way, so what makes my relationship with God any different? I needed to be strategic and understand divine timing instead of rushing.
At this point, you may have noticed a theme here. A few weeks ago I posted a guide to embracing weakness and now I’m talking about navigating divine timing. I’m on a journey of growth (although, this will be a lifelong commitment) and I’ve realized I can’t do so without letting go. This can be difficult given I’m a planner who has my goals mapped out for at least the next 5-7 years. However, I’m working on partnering with God in the areas where my efforts are limited and divine power is essential.